Wednesday, April 2, 2008

In the Midst of Ambiguity

It is the first day after the announcement of our company’s closure. Just any other day, I wake up early although I was not really able to sleep last night because of the sadness I feel within and the questions coming up from my mind of how will it be when I finally lost my job 6 to 9 months from now. That’s the fact I have to face right now and there’s also a fact that I still have to work today. Yes, I still need to report to work. Finish the things that need to be done. Work out for the projects that need to be implemented and when the day of the closure comes, prepare myself for the worse.

But no matter I tried to understand the situation and help myself to focus on my work I can’t help myself but to feel the uncertainty. Do I really have to finish all of this project? What is it for me now? But looking back what my company did for me and for my family I think it will still be worth it to shed my sweat and blood for the company until the day close. I think I need to focus on that more to keep myself going.

My friends are right; I have to take one step at a time. Think of the things I really want and focus myself to get it because no matter what and wherever I may be it is still my happiness and contentment that will matter to me most. For now, I have to rest and give myself a peace of mind even the uncertainty is still there.

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