Sunday, November 22, 2009

Nightmare before Christmas

I just finished watching the movie in entitled "Nightmare before Christmas". It's actually my second time to watch this movie ever since it has been given to me. The story is beautiful that is why I can't help to watch it again. I just feel a little bit sad because there are a lot of memories before that VCD became mine. It was a gift by someone so dear to me. Yes, it's my hon-hon's gift to me. Thinking back what happened months ago was just a fairy tale comes true but like any other fairy tales I just don't know if ours will be a happily ever after ending. That can be if both of us can surpass every obstacle that may come along our way no matter how big or small it is.

Anyway, looking back about the movie. I know that every one of us has our own nightmares before Christmas. Mine is the nightmare of spending it alone because I can't afford to go back to province at this stage because of lack of budget as well as the schedule of my studies. I know that somehow this Christmas will be very different from my previous Christmas celebration.

I remembered last year when I bought an artificial christmas tree as my gift because she has been dreaming to have one since I was a kid. She used to create her own version of Christmas tree though and we all love it. But I think mom just get tired of creating her own version and wish to have a beautiful Christmas tree just like what you seen in the mall. I've seen how happy she was that time and I really felt so glad that somehow I was the reason for that happiness. It's always a warm feeling when you knew that you make someone happy.

Well, that's last year. Now, I don't have the capacity to give gifts and since I used to giving gifts during Christmas it feels odd that I'm not doing any shopping for gifts until now. I hope I'll be able to get job this coming January. I really have to. I don't want to feel sad on special occasions like this. I wish hon-hon is here but I know that he will never come anymore. My nightmare before Christmas is not being able to talk with him.

I hope I will be able to wake up before this nightmare sucked me in. I still wanted to have a happy Christmas even if I don't have cash or no loveones around you. I know it can be done.

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